On a certain night.
I couldn't fall asleep at all, and, 'uuhn', I moaned softly.
I had made the room dark and did my best to shut my eyes, but sleep didn't fall on me.
I murmured, gave up on sleeping and opened my eyes weakly.
Before me, darkness unfolded.
Since I had made my own room dark.
But, when I stared at that darkness, I felt terribly lonely.
Even though I was the one who made it dark, I felt sad.
Perhaps, in time, without anyone desiring me, I would just disappear here, all by myself, I felt.
Being unable to sleep at night had become a common thing.
Whenever I think of unpleasant things, it became even more difficult to sleep.
So I sat up.
My surroundings were still filled with darkness.
And I commanded.
Immediately, light radiated.
My surroundings started brightening brilliantly, but, with just that.
Still, nothing changed.
It could not dispel this loneliness.
Without a word, I stared at my room, devoid of anything.
That place's name was << The Most Ancient Place >>.
It was a place that was not connected to anywhere, not touched by anywhere, that was why when I stared at that place, I felt really, terribly lonely.
And from that feeling of loneliness, I murmured.
"...... maybe it was really a mistake to have created emotions......"
In order to create emotions, it required a very large amount of magic to weave them, however, the price was a terrible one.
In any case, the inner depths of my heart hurt.
Just staying in what should have been a normal, existing darkness, it was already unbearable.
That was why,
"Aah...... it's so lonely that I might just go mad."
She said with a face that was on the verge of tears.
Then, a voice sounded from the corner of the room.
"You have me here right?"
It was my other self, whom I had created to divert the loneliness away, who spoke.
However, that magic had failed. The magic that had created another self had failed. In the end, my own other self could not curb my loneliness.
That was why I ignored that voice.
"Am I not enough?"
"Am I not able to bury that loneliness of yours?"
My other self had kept saying that.
Because he was too noisy, I looked in the direction of his voice.
There, was a good-for-nothing.
There, was a puppet doll who could not even curb a little of my loneliness.
And it seemed like the spell that had composed him could not drive a single bit of my loneliness away.
That was why I stared at that good-for-nothing and told him.
"You can't bury my loneliness."
"Is that so?"
"But I was born for the sake of burying your loneliness right?"
"But yet, I can't bury any of your loneliness?"
The puppet doll said.
"Then, what is the purpose of my existence?"
"Who knows, I wonder too."
"In the first place, most things don't have a reason for their existence right? Even I myself, don't know why I have to be in solitude here."
"You are not alone. I'm here."
"Ah-haha, you're right."
I laughed sadly.
But, I didn't tell him that he was worth nothing to me. He was too pitiful, so I didn't say it.
But, it seemed like the puppet doll was racking his brains, considering something. With his arms folded, and a troubled face,
"If only, if only there's something I can do for your sake."
"If only there's something I can do to even curb a little of your loneliness."
"...... you are so kind."
"That's how you made me."
"Yeah, that's right."
"Since my purpose of existence is for just that, I need to find something."
Upon saying that, the puppet doll desperately racked his brains over and over again. As to for how long he did that, I could not recall.
Hundreds of hours.
Millions of hours.
In any case, it was a long time.
In the meantime, I spent the time in solitude.
There were days I couldn't sleep, as well as days I could sleep, but in the end, I was alone.
The puppet doll had been pondering by himself all this while in the darkness.
Even though it was useless,
Even though the magic that was used to make him, did not grant him the ability to come up with solutions.
"What should I do to save you? What should I do to help you?"
"What should I do to protect you? What in the world can I do for you?"
While I was looking at that puppet doll who kept on muttering those words, on and on, for some reason, it gradually affected me.
He seemed to be sorrowful.
Staring at that incessantly troubled puppet doll in the darkness in the corner of my room,
"Aah, I see...... I made a spell of emotions inside of me......"
That was why as I looked at the puppet doll, I felt a needless sense of pity for him.
However, not realizing that, the puppet doll continued to chant.
"What should I do to save you?"
He chanted continuously, as if he were chanting some sort of a curse.
"What can I do for your sake?"
For your sake.
For your sake.
For your sake.
The puppet doll kept chanting that.
And my ears felt irritated from that. I wanted to yell out 'it's annoying'. I felt so sorrowful from your sorrow that I wanted to cry out, 'I'm not lonely at all'.
That was why.
That was why,
"You don't need to worry about me."
And as I raised my hand, just as I was about to erase him, then.
That puppet doll said something strange.
"Ah, I thought of something good."
And I was surprised by that.
The reason was because I never made him to be capable of saying such a thing.
But the puppet doll continued.
"I thought of a way to bury your loneliness."
He said in delight.
I looked up and looked at the puppet doll.
And I became even more surprised.
The reason was because the puppet doll's appearance had become different from before.
After not looking at him for a long time, his appearance had undergone a huge change.
Both his arms and legs, as if they were going to accessdevour the world outside of this room, sank into the walls and floor, merging with them. The complexion of his entire body had turned into a sinister black, with veins running throughout the entire body.
I stared at him,
"What in the world, are you doing?"
And he replied.
"I want to save you. I want to save you. Since other than that, there's no meaning to my existence."
"No. What I'm asking is, your body......"
"Aah, this? My body has been altered to a curse. As I kept thinking about you, before I knew it, it became like this."
On hearing his words, my eyes widened. And I looked at the spell that composed him. The spell that I had used to create him had its appearance completely changed to something else altogether.
The curse structure squirmed and spiraled around his entire body.
The curse structure squirmed and twisted around his whole body.
It was a dirty, abnormal construct. It was definitely a messy construct that I would never come up with. It was too messy, and had wrecked his spell origin to the point I could not decipher its contents.
"What in the world did you do?"
But he just grinned and replied.
"I found it. The way to save you."
Following that, his body glided. With a curse structure on his body, which was wrecked from it, 'pachin pachin' sounds rang out as black fine pieces fell off from his crumbling body.
But yet, he smiled.
He smiled in delight.
"But I'll save you."
I asked him.
"If that's true, it'll be really interesting though...... but, you really can't...... ah."
At that moment, my words stopped. My right hand was grabbed by him as he closed in.
His hand was hot.
It was so hot as if it had been scalded.
And with that, he tore off my arm.
I cried out. He shouldn't have that kind of strength, but yet. He shouldn't have any strength to go against me, but yet, he tore off my arm and threw it away.
My arm fell to the corner of the room.
I looked at it and then turned back to him.
"Wh-what...... in the world has happened?"
He continued smiling in delight and said.
"Don't worry. I'll save you from this darkness."
Upon saying that, he came to grab my left arm this time,
I yelled out. At that instant, I unleashed my power at him. His head was blown off --- but yet, he did not stop. Even with his head gone, he grabbed my left arm. And tore it off.
That was the only thing I could say.
He threw my left arm to the corner of the room.
And, at the same time, his head grew back. His face was still smiling.
"I'll soon save you. I'll soon get rid of your loneliness."
I looked up at him with a fearful face. Since I've created emotions. Since I've made my heart capable of experiencing solitude and fear, a development that was beyond my expectations appeared before me, and I could no longer move.
Then, with a look of triumph, he smiled kindly and said.
"I'll first made clones. Clones of you. Not someone good-for-nothing like me. Another self that is made of your arm --- the flesh of your body --- see, that's why you won't be lonely anymore right?"
Suddenly, a voice sounded from the corner of the room.
A voice sounded from where the right arm was thrown to.
"...... I'm born. I'm born. Why is this place so dark......"
Then, he said.
"Hi, << Sa-i-to-hi-me-aLight of Source Book >>, are you awake? I'm sorry for the darkness. But, can you light up the place with your beautiful light? You can illuminate everything. Isn't it?"
Then, that girl who was called << Sa-i-to-hi-me-aLight of Source Book >> looked up. She was a really beautiful girl. As her long flowing lavender hair fluttered, she stared at me with cold eyes,
"Aah, that's right. I was born for the sake of illuminating her loneliness."
Then, he said.
"Now, light it up for us."
Instantly, the room became bright.
No, it was not just that. From the overwhelming brightness, my consciousness almost got blasted away. That was probably magic. A powerful magic that could erase the existences of others.
She was truly made from a part of my body.
Then, he said.
"Thank you. It's very bright. With this, the darkness inside her should clear up a little I guess."
At that moment, a voice sounded from the other corner of the room.
"...... I'm born. I'm born. Why is so bright here?"
As I turned my eyes there, there was another girl.
A black-haired girl.
She looked at me with a cheerful face. It seems like she's also born from my own flesh.
He looked towards her and said.
"Hi, << Shi-gu-re Ha-ru-kaThe Bliss of The End >>, are you awake? I'm sorry for the dazzling brightness. But, with your smile, you shall warm her up. You'll envelope all the despair, isn't it?"
"...... ah, uhn. That's right. I'm born for the sake of protecting her."
"Now, envelope us."
Instantly, my uneasiness disappeared.
My loneliness disappeared.
Again, all of my consciousness seemed to be broken down.
I resisted frantically. In order not to let my own existence get erased by the powers of my other selves, I resisted.
Following that, I looked up at him and said.
"...... what do you desire?"
"To make you happy."
"You are lying. You are trying to erase me right?"
But, he smiled. He smiled in delight. He smiled affectionately.
"That's not it. That's your own desire."
"You understand right? I was made by you. That's why I can only act in accordance to your desire."
"That can't be it......"
"But, something unforeseen did happen though. I made use of the embedment spell of yours and infiltrated the world outside. And then, I encountered something strange...... aah, that's not important. Anyway, I'll save you."
Upon saying that, he grabbed hold of my neck with his hand. He grabbed it strongly.
"Are you going to tear my head off and kill me?"
And he replied.
"If you can die from that, then you won't feel troubled right?"
"That's why I'm going to eat it."
"Your despair. Your loneliness. Your emotions, I shall eat them, and receive them. When that happens, your troubles will end right? << Ramiel LilithMost Ancient Witch >>."
"Now, the only thing you need to do is to give the order. 'Devour me'. Devour me', you just need to command me and I shall receive your darkness."
He was still smiling kindly.
I could no longer understand what was his purpose.
To save me.
He was acting to envelope my loneliness, he had said, but I could not see that at all.
At the very least, I could not see that from the spell inside him.
As to who had actually rewritten it and made changes to it, I knew not.
As to what kind of world did he access, and what kind of contract did he made, and with whom did he made it, I knew not.
But still, even so, I ---
"...... will you be able to receive my loneliness?"
And he nodded.
"Yeah, since that's the purpose of my existence."
"I see. You've really found the purpose of your existence huh."
"I did do my best."
"Amazing...... even though I myself, who have created you, have yet to find the purpose of my own existence......"
But, once again, he smiled and said.
"No no, I already know the purpose of your existence."
"Is that so?"
"Do you want me to tell you?"
Then, while still smiling, he opened his mouth wide,
"You...... your existence here, is for the purpose of getting devoured by me."
Then, his power suddenly increased tremendously, swelling up in order to take me in.
It was clearly not my power.
A strange power with an unknown origin.
I looked up at him.
I looked up at the supposedly good-for-nothing puppet doll that I've made.
I looked up at that grotesque monster who should have been given the name of << Ku-ro-ga-ne Ta-i-toThe One Who Buries Loneliness >>.
"...... I see. Even the reason for my existence is you...... the mystery's solved, and at last, I can be released......"
Prologue - The Hollering Doll
But my words stopped there.
I was devoured by Ku-ro-ga-ne Ta-i-to.